Lately, I’ve been feeling really lost. I’m 21 years old, 1 year out of college and I don’t know what the hell I should do with my life. All I know is, I wanna enjoy my youth, travel the world, and find a way to fund my travels. I know, what a millennial thing to say. But it is what it is.

Between me and my current short term goals, lay all my fears and doubts–fears of failure and doubts of my capabilities. And these have hindered me from really throwing myself into the deep-end because I have no idea if I can make it back alive. But recently, I experienced an awakening and was reminded of how I used to be and how I am now. What I am right now is a far cry from what I was just a few years ago.

But it also got me thinking that I’m the only one who can get myself out of this rut. Everything starts with a choice: a choice to get up early, a choice to make your day count, a choice to let go of the past, a choice to move forward, and the list goes on.

So, here I am trying to catch up with all of my peers who have already had a long head start in front of me. But I’m glad that I’m finally consciously trying to get out of this rut. In the end, it’s my personal journey that matters.

So for those who are also feeling lost like me, remember that you have control over your life. It’s just really a matter of snapping out of the “rut” and deciding for yourself how you want to move on from there.

Photography by: Anthony Ariston

Makeup by: Keith Mariz of MAC Cosmetics

xoxo,